C* asked some very interesting questions in regards to this post and I thought I would answer them in a whole new post instead of replying to the post.
Do you want to enjoy your studies, give them the time and attention they need, and foster new friendships?
Yes absolutely I want to enjoy my studies. I know for myself, and would imagine for many others, enjoying your studies makes actually studying that much easier. So yes, I’d like to give them the time and attention they need but I guess it depends on what exactly your definition of time and attention is? For me, that means making sure I have read everything that needs to be read, and understood it all. And although I haven’t started the course yet, I don’t really anticipate this being such a struggle. Perhaps that is arrogant of me, and I may soon change my tune, but I really think I’ll be able to handle it.
In regards to friendships, I’m not sure what I expect there. I’m a bit antisocial actually, and I’m not going to law school to make new friends. I’m happy with my small circle of friends. That said, I’m happy to foster working relationships, and if I “click” with anyone to perhaps make room in my circle of friends, but I don’t have plans for this to be a big part of my uni life. Perhaps that is a bit naive and short sighted of me. I know that for a lot of people fostering these relationships helps them through the tough times, and helps with study groups etc. I’ve yet to find a study group that works for me unfortunately.
Or would you prefer to be torn between two worlds and competing demands?
No I don’t want to be torn between two worlds and competing demands, but I’m not sure that this is an apt description. For the most part, my work is incredibly flexible, with a wide range of times and shifts I can work. In my current role, as long as I’m doing what is necessary I can pretty much do it when I want. Sure there are times that I need to be there, like the meeting and the training session that conflicts, but for most of it they are happy to accommodate my schedule. Sure, there is someone else who can attend THAT meeting in my place, but I do actually want to attend it.
Where is your future heading? Retail or beyond?
I can’t say that I know where my future is heading, whether it is in retail or beyond. I have been offered a number of opportunities at my workplace, positions and promotions that are offered to few. I’ve got so far from hard work, dedication and showing an aptitude for my current role. I’m not quite ready to throw that all away. Yes I’m starting law school. Yes I’m excited about it. I’m also committed to trying it out and giving it a go with an idea of where I want to end up when I finish. But the thing is, it was never my first choice. Medicine always was. Whether I had the right reasons or not (which I have discussed in many blog posts) it is still hard in some ways to forget that. While I’m working to put that behind me, and focus on the future the one constant throughout this has been my work, which I would have given up a long time ago if I didn’t like it (well, mostly). I guess I’m trying to say, in a somewhat convoluted way, that work is my back up. If for whatever reasons law school doesn’t work out, I’m still doing something I like. Something that has opportunities for growth, development and a career. Which leads me nicely to your next question.
Why do you need to work 30 hours per week? People get by on the smell of an oily rag, pay their rent and their bills, have a social life AND study… Just saying.
I don’t need to work 30 hours per week to survive. I want to work 30 hours per week. There are current things in my lifestyle I enjoy. Luxuries I’m not ready to give up which is not at all the whole point. If I drop back to less then 30 hours per week, I will no longer keep my current job and position. My job is supposed to be a minimum 38 hours per week job, and I’m stretching the friendship a little dropping back to 30 hours per week. I have someone ready to step in and pick up the slack so I’m not trying to cram 38 hours of work into 30 hours, however that is as much as they can cover.
I’ve also worked too hard, for too long to just throw it all away. If I cut back to less then 30 hours per week, I’m not only throwing my work away, no matter how I do it, I’d loose all the opportunities and potential for further growth. And if by some chance I didn’t loose all the future potential, I’d have to work ten times harder to make up the lost ground. Frankly, I’m not prepared to do that just yet. I hope to love law, and I hope that it is right for me, but I’m not yet ready to give up my work in case I don’t love it.
Not only that, but I made a commitment when I accepted my current promotion a few months ago. A commitment and a promise to try and achieve something. Something I have not yet achieved. I’m not ready to concede defeat and I want to deliver what I have promised. I have a lot of loyalty for the company I work for, and I want to achieve what I’ve said I would. Yes it means I’ll have conflicts with uni, but I’m happy to deal with them (and vent on here as needed) in order to do this. Sure it means I’ll be torn in different directions, and will have to make choices and prioritise, but I’ve accepted this is something I need to do. I’m not sure I could live with it any other way.
When you look back on your degree, will you be happy with the time you gave to your course and what you achieved in that field – or be pleased you fitted in that extra shift and made it to that meeting?
I think I’ve already covered it, but to me it’s not about putting in an extra shift or attending an extra meeting. It’s about meeting the commitments I’ve already made, and fulfilling the goals I’ve set. It may seem strange, that I am wanting to move away from this, from the job I currently hold which I do enjoy, something that is more then an extra shift or an extra meeting. For me it is the challenge. I need something more challenging, something that will help me grow further and exploit my talents more. For what I currently have in mind, I need the additional qualification of a law degree. And I’ve decided to try working towards that. However there is still so much more I want to achieve, and so much more I want to do in my current job before I’m ready to move on.
Sure I want to do the law degree, and that is where I want to go in the future, but right now I want to meet the challenges I’ve set. Part of the reason for starting the law degree now, is so that when I have met my current set of challenges, and when I am ready to move on, I’ll have the qualification and hopefully the experience to take on that new adventure, yet having fulfilled all my work goals that I currently have.
Have you thought that you’re paying for those tutes or whatever that you miss? Maybe not immediately, but you will!
You know, I don’t see missing the occasional tute as the end of the world. Yes I know I’m paying for them, and I know that I’ll have a lot of ground to make up (particularly if I don’t make friends who are willing to help out with notes and such 😉 ) but I’m happy with the compromise I’ve made. I like to think I put a little bit of thought into which choice I prioritise. Whether it be work over uni or vice versa. I consider what I’ll miss and which is worth it to me. Sure it may cause unnecessary stress, and result in venting on here, but the choices I make are considered and based on what I have to gain or loose. Your thoughts and comments have made me see that perhaps I haven’t explained this very well in the past. I have been accused of skimming over the surface of many a topic in the past! 😉
I read in the closing paragraphs of your last post about how good it was to hang out with people you care for and how grateful you are for the reminder friends bring of what really matters. Maybe you’ll take that idea and run with it, because I don’t know how juggling so many competing demands might effect what really matters. I’ll look forward to reading about the priorities you settle on. Just don’t make it too difficult a process! Why make life more difficult and complicated than it needs to be?!
Yeah absolutely. Who doesn’t love spending time with the people they care about? And I have factored this into my timetable plan for the week. In fact, that is what most of Sunday will be for. It is very convenient that most of the people I care about, also care about each other. Hence allowing for group catch ups. Sure there will probably be Sundays where I need to spend the time on assignments or whatever, but in that case I’ll make the time to stop in for coffee on the way home from uni. I’m lucky to have very understanding and supportive friends who have busy schedules themselves. And yet we still make time for each other and I can’t see that changing. Sure my priorities and choices are likely to change as I start and get into law school but this is where I stand right now and I hope that I’ve managed to answer your questions!
Oh except to say, I’m not sure I’m making it more complicated, well yes technically I suppose I am. But I don’t want a simple life. Simple for me is boring. Routine is boring. I thrive on challenges and solving problems, and while I like my time out as much as the next person I get in to much of a rut if my life is to simple. This makes me sound a bit type A I think, and I’m not. It’s odd, and I’m not sure how to explain it properly but I do tend to cruise through life, while thriving on various stimulus. Completing challenges and achieving goals – the more improbable the better – is exhilarating. Ok, so perhaps I am a little type A.