Hello 2012! You’ve arrived a bit unexpectedly, I wasn’t quite ready to meet you yet. However, you are now here, and deal with you I must. 2011 I think, was a year of growth and conversely, inaction. In a lot of ways, it feels like I spent a good portion of the year in hibernation mode. And survival mode. At the start of the year, I took on too much. Consequently, I paid the price. What I forgot at that time though, was that it wasn’t just me paying the price, a few of my relationships suffered as well. Of course, my friends understood, but they also saw what was happening to me and there may have been an intervention staged at some point during the year.
A rather confronting, painful intervention. Which is hardly surprising really. When is it ever easy to hear the truth and face up to it? Now I can be thankful, although I certainly wasn’t at the time. Clearly, I have people who care enough to bother and that is something I cherish. It acted as a cataclysm, I think. A turning point that resulted in my withdrawal from the world, for a good portion of the year. Actually, thinking back I was pretty “unavailable” for most of the year. First, from over commitment, and then from my self enforced exile. The bonus is, I’ve emerged from my shell, with new knowledge and new purpose. I’ve grown a lot in the last year, through experience and reflection. So I’m chalking 2011 up as a year of personal growth.
I successfully navigated the year and am entering 2012 ready to take on the world and follow through on some of the hard thought decisions I’ve made. Starting with the GAMSAT which is only two and a half months away (hopefully saying it that way will scare me enough to work my butt off studying) and then finding another job. I’ve had enough of my current employer. I think I’ve grown beyond what they can offer me more than anything else, and it is well past time for a change. The problem of course is, that I am due for long service leave as of April, and to leave now would be rather foolish. So my goals for the next six months are to ace the GAMSAT, find a new job, and rather ambiguously, embrace life and the opportunities I’m given more freely. And now that I’ve rambled a bit, I’ll finish by saying I am also trying out this whole post a week thing again, and hoping it’ll be a bit more successful this time around! Wish me luck!
